Witness.

Friday, January 09, 2009

Life's unfair

As I walk into the Indoor sports hall this afternoon for training. My coach and Mr Imran was sitting near the entrance. I was late but it he didn't say anything. When I unpack my attire, he called me towards him and coach. They asked me if I wanted to play better Basketball next yr. Asking me if i'm willing to sacrifice my holidays to train for 2009/2010. I said I was. This was a good sign, coach was talking about my future... But it meant another thing. When he said 2009-2010, did he mean that I wasn't playing this year? Half way during training. Coach stopped us to speak to us. Mr Imran was telling us who got into the 12. Slowly one by one, names of expected players were called out. I was hoping my name would come soon, but in the end it wasn't. I thought it was a mistake, but I couldn't think more... My goal this yr was to win South Zone, but I didn't get into the team. It really sucks. Especially when you find out that you came to training more times than the guy who just popped out from nowhere and trained for only 2 sessions but got into the team. Mr Imran once said that attendance was important, but in this case, it wasn't. Maybe I sucked more than him, but i think it wasn't fair. I really wanted to play for B div so that I can prove myself, become a better player, have the feeling of victory and play my primary school friends in matches and see how they are growing. Its very hard for me to accept this. Its like training so hard and you didn't get what you want. To find my indentity and not suceed in proving it. Everyone will be getting their jerseys next week, wearing Quest on their chest but I will be sitting in class and most likely won't be playing any tournaments this year...
SCREAM!!